It gets better.
Who could've guessed I'd ever be able to say that, but it does! Keep fighting. Keep getting up every day. If you can't live for yourself, find something to live for (it's ok if that thing is wanting your hair to grow back...). Tell someone you're hurting--email me if you need to. Be honest with yourself, even if the truth isn't flattering (I had to admit, "you're doing this because people coddle you and you're too lazy to grow up). Acknowledge that you'll have lapses; lapses aren't failures. Just keep going. It's gonna be ok! IT GETS BETTER.